Life Lately
My life right now is in tatters. No surprise there right. I am carrying my cross. Come to think of it (just now), this is probably my first proper life test and trial as a Christian! And not a small one – oh this is known to almost everyone who knows me – which would have been a shocker to the old Maryrose. But in essence things are not going how I hoped it would go, but when I finally cried out to God, he rescued me in a way I didn’t imagine – he took me out of environments that was keeping me in bondage! And since my liberation I feel so free and bold, because I know who I am! I have a renewed faith in Jesus Christ; a deeper relationship with him and I feel so loved. My situation is sad, but if not for God who was on my side! Then I would have been despondent and lost, but my heavenly father has showered me with peace that passes all understanding.
He has provided for me in ways that I just couldn’t imagine. I smile from ear to ear because I feel the presence of God with me. Don’t you know that God is LOVE? I feel it on a daily and it’s so special. Now I understand when the Bible talks of God being a husband to us (Isaiah 54:5), a father to the fatherless. I love the music from Prince of Egypt – it has been so healing to my soul. I feel like I have been delivered from Egypt and God is wanting to create a new covenant with me (Jeremiah 31:32). But what has been lost is yet to be fully restored. What has been broken is yet to be mended. There’s nothing impossible with God.
Immediately I was out of bondage, my mind cleared up, I could pray to God properly seeking his help and direction (even though I was led to a place I protested against). I read Psalm 37 and 91 constantly and was blessed with his love and comfort.
Stress is not good people! Pray to God to deliver you from bad environments! Lean not on your own understanding.
I can’t explain it but I pray to Jesus like he is my best friend, my husband, my mentor, my everything – because he is! And he is the King of Kings and knows everything, he is all powerful and he is LOVE. He protects me from harm, he has strengthened my mind, he has given me peace that passes all understanding. He showers me with things through people and has blessed me with favour with people he has sent my way. He fills my pockets and ensures that I am kept warm and cosy at night with a roof over my head. That’s what God does!
I feel so greatly humbled and thank God! Because I have met my own struggle to the point where I had to dig deeper and know more about God and what his will is for me. I had to ask God the questions and be encouraged by testimonies in the Bible and in modern day. I thought I knew fully who God was but I realise that I kept putting God in boxes and in turn keeping myself caged. I can never fully know the vastness of who God is, but I’m glad that he is debunking what I thought I knew about him and oh my I’m so thrilled. It has made my life as a Christian so much more fulfilling, fun, enjoyable and free!
I am praying and believing in restoration in my home, but right now Jesus is showing me in so many ways how much he loves me and I feel so loved by him and God my heavenly father. God needs to be first in my life before anyone else.
I’m gradually getting back to being the woman God created me to be. My personal style has come back (he he), I’m enjoying life and the beautiful scenery around me. I gave birth to my third child, who is just so calm and I love her so so so so much! Isn’t God so loving friends – Despite everything that’s happening, God blessed me with a beautiful baby girl who is so calm and peaceful! Honestly everyone who has met her has remarked this same thing. I know it is God’s doing. Plus I have a great community via my family and church, and I’ve gotten back to playing games, a particular favourite of mine and I’m eating goood!
When you realise that Jesus wants to be everything to you and help you, and make you smile, you’ll be laughing even in times of hardship. Jesus said if an evil father can give his child what he wants, how much more God who created all things?
Blessed be the Lord, who daily loadeth us with benefits, even the God of our salvation.
Psalm 68:19
And when you realise that you are precious to God, you won’t settle for anything that will give you stress and take your heart, mind and soul away from him. God will answer your hearts desires, but first seek him – he knows what’s best for you and he is able to mend the broken hearted.
I’m in my season of trial, because like Job, the Devil thinks that if he takes everything from me I will curse God – never! There are moments where I have certainly felt perplexed, but not defeated! Oh no because if God is for me, who can be against me? The Lord will restore what has been taken and I will continue to laugh and praise God for he is good! 😀 Victory is nigh. And if you have faith, victory will be yours too – Just continue to trust and love God.
